neverwhere

So, I am in the midst of reading a book. Well, a Graphic Novel (also known as a Trade Paperback, or TP, technically), which in layman’s terms is a novel that is done with drawings and word and thought balloons, like a really large comic book.

The novel is Neil Gaiman’s “Neverwhere”, as re-written and drawn by Mike Carey and Glenn Fabry.

Anyhoo, early in the TP, I came across this quote; “The world seems to work in predictable ways, and you think you see the pattern. But that’s fatal. Because it’s only a pattern until you meet the first event that doesn’t fit. And by then it’s too late. By then, all the tricks you’ve learned to deal with the world…well, they just don’t work anymore.”

Making me think about my life. About how it is. About how it has been. About how it is, again.

Like Alice in Wonderland, I have fallen down a rabbit hole; I made a choice to follow a rabbit down a hole, and life has never been the same. Like the character in The Matrix, I was offered the pills, and I took one, and now I can never look at life the same again.

But for me, this is not a bad thing. In fact, I am thinking that it is a GREAT thing!

My rabbit hole was my one decision. One, single, solitary decision, has forever changed my life. Last year, a little over a year ago, God nudged me. And I swallowed my fear, and I obeyed; I shared a little bit of His love with a woman who needed to hear it.

Yes, a myriad of strange things happened after that. I fell in love with her. She seemed to toy with the idea of loving me. Then, she used me. Then threw me away. And I loved her still.

Yes, all of those things happened. But, the part that changed my life forever, was obeying God.

I cannot look at anything the same way anymore. Everywhere I go, nothing is the same. Some might even say, that I lost my old life, that I shed it like a snake shedding its skin, that I stepped into a new reality. Now, everywhere I go, everywhere I go is ‘Neverwhere.’ Nothing is the same. Nor will it ever be again.

And that’s okay. No, that is better than ‘okay’; it’s awesome.