Moor Thoughts

I refuse to let my spiritual life become a swamp that i get stuck in, because of the failures i have encountered this year.

That being so, here are a few thoughts of mine...

God encouraged me. He whispered His encouragement to me, and He led me to scriptures that encouraged me. At no time did i find a scripture that said, "And God says that He will give you a woman who is an unbeliever, and who belongs to another man." At no time did God go against His laws, nor did He take away free will. God knew the outcome of this all along.

God encouraged me because He loves me. God encouraged me, because He was proud of me. Although not everything that i did, thought, or beleived for was correct, God liked that i put God first, that i depended upon Him, and that i prayed for others. He liked that I shared some of my faith; I either planted seeds, or watered seeds that were already planted. In that sense, I did a good thing, and God was pleased about that.

God did not let me down. God did not lie to me. I let myself get deceived, because i did not pay close enough attention to God's Word, i took my own feelings over His laws. That was my fault.

In the end, i did some good things. I drew close to God, i grew from a spiritual standpoint, i tried to show God's love to somebody who needs it, and i cared deeply for another human being whom God loves. My faith increased. Yes, maybe for the wrong reasons, as I thought that God would give me what i wanted. In time, i will one day be able to clearly see that it was a good thing that God did not give her to me, i am sure.

God wanted me, during this time, to know and understand that He was/is totally capable of doing the miraculous. He is a miracle working God. But He will not compromise His plan for my life, His will for me, for any wishes or desires that I have that go contrary to His will.

So, i choose to thank God for this experience. I choose to be thankful for the lessons that i am learning from this.

Though i am saddened by life, I am still in God's mighty hand, and that is the most important thing.