Frumpy

frumpy - the art of being partly frustrated, and partly grumpy.



Right now, i do not know how else to describe how I feel right now. Partially calm...but also a bit like I want to weep?


At work, once again i am under attack. One person, let's call him"Simon" (cuz that's his name, maybe?), has accused me in writing of being a liar.

Am I? Of course not. In fact, all my reports, by law, have to proveable as correct and true by videotape evidence. Therefore, if it isn't true, i cannot say it. That's my job.

In an incident about fifteen days ago or more, "Simon" refused to follow company policy, as well as provinical government policy. Re-Fused. I could have reported him then and there. Instead, as I have had clashed with him before on the same thing (and been accused of having something against him personally after that, even though this is totally untrue and unfair), I took the more cautious approach. I documented everything that had occurred, and pulled aside all the video (and audio) evidence and saved it. I then phoned my boss and told him what was going on, and then left even more detailed notes for him about all this.

By law, I had to report that "Simon" had disobeyed the rules. That is in my job description; i have to. There are no other options. But, not wanting him and his co-horts (more on that later) to once again accuse me of having a 'personal vendetta' against "Simon", I waited. After five or six days, my other boss 9second in command) gave me the go-ahead to report this all. In fact, the report was opened and started by her, not me! I put in my information, as requested, being careful to only put proveable facts, no opinions allowed! I wa salso very careful not to point any fingers at "Simon"; very, very careful, although it was obvious that he was in the wrong.

But, "Simon" is an ex-cop, ex-RCMP. He know show to get people on his side, play up the fact that he was a cop, etcetera. Both of our last two General Managers have gotten behind him, and against me. Yup, this new one, too!

Our new GM came up to my department to view the video, and audio (which, by the way, is a breach of procedure right there! my boss was never even asked about this by the GM!), and left saying that it was a "mis-understanding between departments", which is always the first volley fired. Next will come, "personal vendetta", followed by "but 'Simon' was a cop!"

My boss, tonight, phoned the GM and gave him a piece of her mind, and told him to get "Simon" to write up why he did not follow procedures. "Simon's" official report, which was written after being sequestered away in the office with GM coaxing him on what to write, was basically to call me a liar, and say that i did not pass on to him the information that I said I did. He's blaming me, and calling me and my report a lie/liar. Both he and the GM are.

My bosses will support me, both of them will. But how can i effectively do my job, when people keep calling into question my morality and my ethics? They (GM/Simon, etc) are trying to slowly ruin my reputation, because i refuse to bow before them, becuz i refuse to compromise what is the truth.

Good thing God fights for me. Good thing i handled this one so gently and carefully, and gathered all my evidence and got my boss's approval before starting anything. Good thing I can look at this, and know that I am in the right, even if nobody else believes that.

I also have a witness to everything that happened during the original incident fifteen days ago or so. This witness has been kept out of it up until now, but can verify everything that i said and did that night. And nobody knows about her, outside of my department, which is a very good thing.

But it is still frustrating. Knowing you'll win the war, you still take a few dire beatings in the battle to get to the end result. And it hurts.