BD # 39

Hi.

it's me.

It is my birthday. Or, as I type these words, it will be my birthday in under 2 minutes.

My birfday. Yes, i have trouble pronouncing the word birthday, it is true. If I do not really concentrate, my "th" becomes an "f".

My 39th birfday.

Y'know, i did not think that being alone on my birthday would bother me much. I even took the weekend off from work, planning on doing nothing more exciting than perhaps a little house-cleaning.

But, life has a way of throwing you some unexpected curveballs. Ain't that the truth!

I was visiting my daughter and her mom Friday night. They have a new Wii system, with Wii Fit. So, Saturday evening, I suddenly realize that I think i want one. Not for gaming purposes (I am old-fashioned and do all my gaming on my pc) , but for the exercise aspects of it.

So, at 8:30 pm, I head out to WalMart. They have no Wii's. So i go to Futureshop, getting there just before they close. They tell me that every store in town has been out of Wii systems since before Christmas, and they have no idea when they will get more in stock.

SoI am in my car in Futureshop parking lot, mildly bummed. Well, I figure that maybe that means I am just not meant to get one; so i shrug it off.

Then i start aimlessly driving in my car. Suddenly, I realize that really I am looking to get myself a birfday gift.

And, at this point, most unexpectedly, I start to cry.

Cry? Why!? Well, i do not know. But, I did. And at 39 years old, I am old enough to admit it.

I ended up going to Safeway and spending $120 on groceries instead. Even bought a movie there, "Paul Blart: Mall Cop" which i actually really enjoyed (but the parts where he was 38 years old and single and could not get a date, that had me sniffling again).

So, here I am. Alone on my birthday. You know what? It DOES bother me, a fair amount. I do not want to be alone.

I am contented with who I am and how my life is. I can live with it. But I miss the excitement and passion of having a true love.

Thta is all I have to say.

Happy Birthday, me.