Nice guys finish last.
There is much more fact than fiction to this.
Girls want danger and aggression from a guy. Those who do not fit that mold, they just end up being “just friends.” Girls like talking with guys who are nice and gentle and sweet and compassionate and caring, they like befriending them, but romance…not a chance.
Women chase after (or let themselves be chased after by) the other kind of guy…you know, the kind that thinks about himself first, the guy who can’t be faithful, who thinks he is God’s gift to women. They somehow expect that they can teach these guys to be monogamous, that they can teach these guys how to cuddle without expecting something from it, to be good providers and loving husbands and fathers.
More often that not, these women fail in that. What they end up with, is years and years devoted to somebody who never had their best interests at heart, who never respected them, who used them and then either ignored them or cheated on them.
Most men are pigs. And most women are horrible judges of character.
Makes you wonder how somebody can believe in true love, when they believe all of the above is true. Yet, I do.
Of course, that is because my whole life is about faith. I believe that there is a God Who loves me, even though I cannot see Him. I believe that Jesus rose from the dead, even though that seems impossible. I believe that I am forgiven, even though I sin daily. And, I believe in true love, even though I am 18 hours from being divorced for the second time in my life.
I will not change who I am, in order to impress a girl. I will not attempt to be a troglodyte Neanderthal, an uncaring woman-abuser, just so that my bad-boy image will attract a woman to me. No, I will stay who I am; a sweet, caring, quiet, spiritual man. I will stay who I am, because God loves me the way that I am right now, and so will my next wife. I will trust God to lead the right person to me, at the right time. And I CAN trust Him, because He is faithful and true.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
directional quote for my future
I'll wait
'Til your love comes down
I'm coming straight for your heart
No way
You can stop me now
As fine as you are
Van Halen, "I'll Wait"
'Til your love comes down
I'm coming straight for your heart
No way
You can stop me now
As fine as you are
Van Halen, "I'll Wait"
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Thoughts of beauty, in passing
Sometimes, love just isn’t enough to keep people together. There needs to be more; like-mindedness (at least on some things), respect, belief, loyalty, and a future.
It is sad, really. Sad, because love is so inflaming, so igniting, so passionate to the soul; love is a nuclear furnace, it burns white hot through the very soul of a person…yet, there has to be more. Love, in and of itself, is not enough.
Everybody needs somebody to stand up for them, to believe in them. Too many people go through life, not having that person. They settle. That’s sad. It is very, very sad when the person you are closest to, the person you love, the person you let in to your life in intimate ways, is not that person who respects you and believes in you and treats you like gold and believes in the best for you and puts you first in everything. For too many people, this is their reality, and I weep for them. But, saddest of all, is when there is no one person who believes in you.
For myself, most of those who do believe in me, end up being people who have taken the time to get to know me, to examine me. And most of them, in one way or another, recognize me for who I am and express to me how much I mean to them, only after they have walked away from me, never to return in true closeness. I believe it is possible that I scare people off, that my openness is actually a hindrance to real relationships, because to many people have settled in life and just do not know what to do with people who are open and honest and caring and compassionate and real.
I have a select few people in my life who believe in me, and I am thankful for that (and for them). But I am not so sure that I have ever had that belief, that offered acceptance of who I am, coming from a person who has also given me their heart and truly let me in to their world as well. That makes me sad. Because that is what I want. Okay, Lord?
I just want to love, and be loved. I want to accept, and be accepted. I know that nothing this side of heaven will ever fully satisfy those needs within me…but I also know that the needs that I feel, they were also put there by God, and so was the need for human companionship and love.
I just want to meet a special person, all of my own. And I want to love on her like there is no tomorrow. I want to make her the very center of my life (God excluded, obviously), and do my best to bring her blessings and happiness and every good opportunity that she deserves as a special child of God.
That’s all that I want; I just want it all. I want the fairy tale, and the reality. And I do not just want it; I expect it.
Because it is real. It is out there. I feel it in my heart, and in my soul. One day, maybe soon, that will happen for me, a beautiful gift from my Saviour to me.
It is sad, really. Sad, because love is so inflaming, so igniting, so passionate to the soul; love is a nuclear furnace, it burns white hot through the very soul of a person…yet, there has to be more. Love, in and of itself, is not enough.
Everybody needs somebody to stand up for them, to believe in them. Too many people go through life, not having that person. They settle. That’s sad. It is very, very sad when the person you are closest to, the person you love, the person you let in to your life in intimate ways, is not that person who respects you and believes in you and treats you like gold and believes in the best for you and puts you first in everything. For too many people, this is their reality, and I weep for them. But, saddest of all, is when there is no one person who believes in you.
For myself, most of those who do believe in me, end up being people who have taken the time to get to know me, to examine me. And most of them, in one way or another, recognize me for who I am and express to me how much I mean to them, only after they have walked away from me, never to return in true closeness. I believe it is possible that I scare people off, that my openness is actually a hindrance to real relationships, because to many people have settled in life and just do not know what to do with people who are open and honest and caring and compassionate and real.
I have a select few people in my life who believe in me, and I am thankful for that (and for them). But I am not so sure that I have ever had that belief, that offered acceptance of who I am, coming from a person who has also given me their heart and truly let me in to their world as well. That makes me sad. Because that is what I want. Okay, Lord?
I just want to love, and be loved. I want to accept, and be accepted. I know that nothing this side of heaven will ever fully satisfy those needs within me…but I also know that the needs that I feel, they were also put there by God, and so was the need for human companionship and love.
I just want to meet a special person, all of my own. And I want to love on her like there is no tomorrow. I want to make her the very center of my life (God excluded, obviously), and do my best to bring her blessings and happiness and every good opportunity that she deserves as a special child of God.
That’s all that I want; I just want it all. I want the fairy tale, and the reality. And I do not just want it; I expect it.
Because it is real. It is out there. I feel it in my heart, and in my soul. One day, maybe soon, that will happen for me, a beautiful gift from my Saviour to me.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
My Future Hope
I just finished watching the movie Paycheque starring Ben Affleck.
It was a decent movie; not great, but okay.
The movie had this quote that I really like –
“If you show someone their future, they have no future; if you take away the mystery, you take away hope.”
Isn’t that just like reality? Think about all of the people who get their palms read, their tea leaves looked at, and check out their horoscopes. They all want to know their future, and by doing so, they end up making themselves slaves to whatever they are told. What they are told is going to happen, they MAKE happen. They lose the ability to make their own choices, and instead make decisions BASED on what they are told their future will be!
Think about God; He never specifically tells us how our future is going to look, He leaves it a bit of a mystery for us. He tells us He will be with us, and that our future is a good one, but He allows us to anticipate our future instead of being controlled by it. Think about it this way – is Christmas morning most exciting when you know exactly what is under the tree for you, or when everything is a complete surprise?
Interesting, isn’t it?
Personally, I KNOW my future is going to be great. Do I know WHAT my future will look like? No, no I do not. And that makes it all the more exciting, doesn’t it? God is in the driver’s seat, I just ride on the bus and He drives. As long as I do not get off the bus and walk away from Him, I will arrive exactly where He wants me to be!
It was a decent movie; not great, but okay.
The movie had this quote that I really like –
“If you show someone their future, they have no future; if you take away the mystery, you take away hope.”
Isn’t that just like reality? Think about all of the people who get their palms read, their tea leaves looked at, and check out their horoscopes. They all want to know their future, and by doing so, they end up making themselves slaves to whatever they are told. What they are told is going to happen, they MAKE happen. They lose the ability to make their own choices, and instead make decisions BASED on what they are told their future will be!
Think about God; He never specifically tells us how our future is going to look, He leaves it a bit of a mystery for us. He tells us He will be with us, and that our future is a good one, but He allows us to anticipate our future instead of being controlled by it. Think about it this way – is Christmas morning most exciting when you know exactly what is under the tree for you, or when everything is a complete surprise?
Interesting, isn’t it?
Personally, I KNOW my future is going to be great. Do I know WHAT my future will look like? No, no I do not. And that makes it all the more exciting, doesn’t it? God is in the driver’s seat, I just ride on the bus and He drives. As long as I do not get off the bus and walk away from Him, I will arrive exactly where He wants me to be!
Oops
About my picks for the Olympic Men's hockey team in 2010...i forgot that Ryan Kesler is an American.
That being so, I name Jordan Staal of the Pittsburgh Penguins to take his spot!
Sorry Canuck fans!
That being so, I name Jordan Staal of the Pittsburgh Penguins to take his spot!
Sorry Canuck fans!
Testing Me
I took the Sports Test at http://www.cbc.ca/testthenation, and here is how i scored!
Click to enlarge.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Olympics
So, here are my current picks for the 2010 Canadian Olympic Hockey Team.
A lot of good players got left off of my team. A lot of younger players, such as those who played in the 2008 World Championships, are on this team, as well as a few popular picks since the Olympics are in British Columbia.
Line Combinations:
1. Sidney Crosby, Ryan Getzlaf, Jarome Iginla
2. Rick Nash, Vincent Lecavalier, Martin St. Louis
3. Patrick Marleau, Eric Staal, Dany Heatley
4. Chris Kunitz, Joe Sakic, Ryan Kesler
Extra Forwards: Paul Kariya, Paul Gaustad
Defense Pairings:
1. Shea Weber, Scott Niedermayer
2. Robyn Regehr, Mike Green
3. Brent Burns, Dan Boyle
Extra Defencemen: Duncan Keith, Ed Jovanoski
Goaltenders:
1. Roberto Luongo
2. Marc-Andre Fleury
3. Steve Mason
A lot of good players got left off of my team. A lot of younger players, such as those who played in the 2008 World Championships, are on this team, as well as a few popular picks since the Olympics are in British Columbia.
Line Combinations:
1. Sidney Crosby, Ryan Getzlaf, Jarome Iginla
2. Rick Nash, Vincent Lecavalier, Martin St. Louis
3. Patrick Marleau, Eric Staal, Dany Heatley
4. Chris Kunitz, Joe Sakic, Ryan Kesler
Extra Forwards: Paul Kariya, Paul Gaustad
Defense Pairings:
1. Shea Weber, Scott Niedermayer
2. Robyn Regehr, Mike Green
3. Brent Burns, Dan Boyle
Extra Defencemen: Duncan Keith, Ed Jovanoski
Goaltenders:
1. Roberto Luongo
2. Marc-Andre Fleury
3. Steve Mason
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Irony of God
How ironic is it, that i am sitting at work, and sensing God's awesome presence, and I type these words: "Lord, let Your glory fall. Lord Jesus, let Your glory fall, fall in me. "
Then, a few hours later, on my way home, the song playing in my CD-player in my car is Consuming Fire, with the lyrics "Lord let Your glory fall, Lord let Your glory fall".
What God is doing in me, i do not deserve. I certainly did not do anything to cause God to look favourably upon me. Any call upon my life, any call upon my heart, is there because of what Jesus did. I am nothing but His bond-servant; I serve Him because I love Him, and I can only love Him because He first loved me.
Jesus, in all that I do, in all that I say, be glorified in and through me.
This is my year. The year full of irony. When everything is taken from me, all I have left is all that I really need; Jesus.
Then, a few hours later, on my way home, the song playing in my CD-player in my car is Consuming Fire, with the lyrics "Lord let Your glory fall, Lord let Your glory fall".
What God is doing in me, i do not deserve. I certainly did not do anything to cause God to look favourably upon me. Any call upon my life, any call upon my heart, is there because of what Jesus did. I am nothing but His bond-servant; I serve Him because I love Him, and I can only love Him because He first loved me.
Jesus, in all that I do, in all that I say, be glorified in and through me.
This is my year. The year full of irony. When everything is taken from me, all I have left is all that I really need; Jesus.
Take My Life
Tim Hughes - Consuming Fire
Verse 1:
There must be more than this
Oh Breath of God come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray
Chorus:
Consuming Fire
Fan into flame
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God
Fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way
With us
Verse 2:
Come like a rushing wind
Fill us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
Leave us abandoned to Your praise
Lord let Your glory fall
Lord let Your glory fall
(repeat chorus)
Bridge:
Stir it up in our hearts, Lord
Stir it up in our hearts, Lord
Stir it up in our hearts,
A passion for Your name
(repeat bridge)
(repeat chorus)
Lord, I want to be a glory-seeker.
In all that I do, I want to bring glory to Your name.
Take me, make me, use me.
Monday, April 13, 2009
less iz more
I cannot say it any other way.
No other way of expressing it causes it to have more meaning, or gets the point across any better.
Sometimes, simplest is best. This is one of those times.
In my life, in my heart, nothing expresses the deep inner cry of my heart more than this;
Less of me, more of Jesus.
Lord, let Your glory fall. Lord Jesus, let Your glory fall, fall in me.
No other way of expressing it causes it to have more meaning, or gets the point across any better.
Sometimes, simplest is best. This is one of those times.
In my life, in my heart, nothing expresses the deep inner cry of my heart more than this;
Less of me, more of Jesus.
Lord, let Your glory fall. Lord Jesus, let Your glory fall, fall in me.
playoff fever
Putting my money (I don't have any!) where my mouth is (and what sort of a dumb saying is that, anyways?!), here are my first round predictions for the 2009 NHL playoffs;
Ducks over Sharks in 7
Bruins over Canadiens in 6
Blue Jackets over Red Wings in 7
Rangers over Capitals in 6
Canucks over Blues in 6
Devils over Hurricanes in 7
Blackhawks over Flames in 6
Penguins over Flyers in 6
Ducks over Sharks in 7
Bruins over Canadiens in 6
Blue Jackets over Red Wings in 7
Rangers over Capitals in 6
Canucks over Blues in 6
Devils over Hurricanes in 7
Blackhawks over Flames in 6
Penguins over Flyers in 6
Sunday, April 5, 2009
More Thoughts
Acceptance.
There is nothing more important to me in relationships, than acceptance.
I require acceptance. I crave acceptance. I need acceptance - without acceptance, there is only death.
All my relationships, in all of them, the one crucial question is; "do you accept me for who I am?"
If the answer is "no"...then i cannot be around you.
In my work, i work with somebody (she isn't really my boss, she just thinks she is) who accepts nobody. Everybody falls short fo what she wants them to be, so she berates everybody for failing to live up to her impossible standards. If God Himself stood before her, she probably would try to judge Him too and find Him lacking (but as a believer, i know that would never happen - the only thing to hit the floor before her forehead would be her knees).
I can't stand people like that. I do not hate them, i just cannot waste my time on them. People like that, resist change, resist God, resist life and reality. They suck the life out of everybody, if you let them.
My 2nd wife, she was like that. I have no hatred towards her, and i wish her well. But she had impossible inner standards that she judged everybody by. It killed me, it stole my joy. After five and a half years, it made it easy(er) to let her go and move on.
I need people who accept me. I need people who see me for who i am, and for who God says that i am, and who love me for being me.
That has to be something my next sweetie has. Okay, Lord?
I was listening to Tim Hughes' "When Silence Falls" on the way home from work a bit ago.
"I've had questions without answers, I've known sorrow and I have known pain...
But I will praise You, Jesus praise You..."
As I look back over the last year or so of my life, i am amazed at the amount of answerless questions I have had. Things that i realize, i will never get an answer to. In the end, i have had to just say, 'okay God, I get it - You do not have to give me the answers to my questions, as long as You give me You.'
Life is not about answers. Life is about Jesus.
So, when the tears fall, Jesus will be the song within my heart.
When the sorrow overcomes me, when the pain seems too much to bear, when the questions have no answer, the only answer is "But i will praise You, Jesus praise You..."
That is the only Answer that i need.
Thank You, Lord, for accepting me just as I am, and loving me enough to never quit working within me.
I will praise You.
There is nothing more important to me in relationships, than acceptance.
I require acceptance. I crave acceptance. I need acceptance - without acceptance, there is only death.
All my relationships, in all of them, the one crucial question is; "do you accept me for who I am?"
If the answer is "no"...then i cannot be around you.
In my work, i work with somebody (she isn't really my boss, she just thinks she is) who accepts nobody. Everybody falls short fo what she wants them to be, so she berates everybody for failing to live up to her impossible standards. If God Himself stood before her, she probably would try to judge Him too and find Him lacking (but as a believer, i know that would never happen - the only thing to hit the floor before her forehead would be her knees).
I can't stand people like that. I do not hate them, i just cannot waste my time on them. People like that, resist change, resist God, resist life and reality. They suck the life out of everybody, if you let them.
My 2nd wife, she was like that. I have no hatred towards her, and i wish her well. But she had impossible inner standards that she judged everybody by. It killed me, it stole my joy. After five and a half years, it made it easy(er) to let her go and move on.
I need people who accept me. I need people who see me for who i am, and for who God says that i am, and who love me for being me.
That has to be something my next sweetie has. Okay, Lord?
I was listening to Tim Hughes' "When Silence Falls" on the way home from work a bit ago.
"I've had questions without answers, I've known sorrow and I have known pain...
But I will praise You, Jesus praise You..."
As I look back over the last year or so of my life, i am amazed at the amount of answerless questions I have had. Things that i realize, i will never get an answer to. In the end, i have had to just say, 'okay God, I get it - You do not have to give me the answers to my questions, as long as You give me You.'
Life is not about answers. Life is about Jesus.
So, when the tears fall, Jesus will be the song within my heart.
When the sorrow overcomes me, when the pain seems too much to bear, when the questions have no answer, the only answer is "But i will praise You, Jesus praise You..."
That is the only Answer that i need.
Thank You, Lord, for accepting me just as I am, and loving me enough to never quit working within me.
I will praise You.
Friday, April 3, 2009
various
Various thoughts going through my head lately...
Just finished watching the movie Slap Shot. A timeless classic. They will never make a movie like that one again.
Enjoying my video-gaming lately. Been playing Neverwinter Nights for the last four or five days. Thoroughly enjoying it.
Thinking about what i want in a woman...
What i most want, is somebody who doesn't think they have it all together. People who think they have it all together, it is hard for them to change and adjust, because they do not ever think they have to. I want to be with somebody who knows they aren't perfect, who knows they have faults, but who loves life and who loves God. I want, most of all this is what i want, i want a woman who knows how much God loves her, who loves God back with all her heart and soul, and who wants to spend time with God.
God, give me that in a woman, and I can work with the rest.
Just finished watching the movie Slap Shot. A timeless classic. They will never make a movie like that one again.
Enjoying my video-gaming lately. Been playing Neverwinter Nights for the last four or five days. Thoroughly enjoying it.
Thinking about what i want in a woman...
What i most want, is somebody who doesn't think they have it all together. People who think they have it all together, it is hard for them to change and adjust, because they do not ever think they have to. I want to be with somebody who knows they aren't perfect, who knows they have faults, but who loves life and who loves God. I want, most of all this is what i want, i want a woman who knows how much God loves her, who loves God back with all her heart and soul, and who wants to spend time with God.
God, give me that in a woman, and I can work with the rest.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
HB Shauna (and more)
Happy Birthday, my friend Shauna. May Jesus richly bless you this year of your life.
To you, I present the lyrics that had me weeping on my way home from work...
"Consuming Fire" by Tim Hughes
A while back, our church in Watford, England was going through a season of really calling out for more of God. One Sunday our associate pastor was speaking and kept using the phrase, "There must be more." That struck me. We've seen glimpses of God’s greatness and glory, but there is still so much more to discover. I went home and started writing the song. It's a cry for God to fill us anew, to deepen our passion for Him, to do all that He wants among us. It’s a cry for more.
There must be more than this
O breath of God, come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray
Consuming fire, fan into flames
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God, fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us
Come like a rushing wind
Clothe us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
Leave us abandoned to Your praise
Lord let Your glory fall
Lord let Your glory fall
Consuming fire, fan into flames
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God, fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us
To you, I present the lyrics that had me weeping on my way home from work...
"Consuming Fire" by Tim Hughes
A while back, our church in Watford, England was going through a season of really calling out for more of God. One Sunday our associate pastor was speaking and kept using the phrase, "There must be more." That struck me. We've seen glimpses of God’s greatness and glory, but there is still so much more to discover. I went home and started writing the song. It's a cry for God to fill us anew, to deepen our passion for Him, to do all that He wants among us. It’s a cry for more.
There must be more than this
O breath of God, come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray
Consuming fire, fan into flames
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God, fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us
Come like a rushing wind
Clothe us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
Leave us abandoned to Your praise
Lord let Your glory fall
Lord let Your glory fall
Consuming fire, fan into flames
A passion for Your name
Spirit of God, fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us
best i ever had
Heard this song on the radio, and it made me think that if I just capitalized the "Y" in the word "you", this woudl be a really beautiful and meaningful song to me...
"Bargain" by The Who
I'd gladly lose me to find You
I'd gladly give up all I had
To find You, I'd suffer anything and be glad
I'd pay any price just to get You
I'd work all my life and I will
To win You, I'd stand naked, stoned and stabbed
I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had
I'd gladly lose me to find You
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch You, I'm gonna run and never stop
I'd pay any price just to win You
Surrender my good life for bad
To find You, I'm gonna drown an unsung man
I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had
I sit looking 'round
I look at my face in the mirror
I know I'm worth nothing without You
In life one and one don't make two
One and one make one
And I'm looking for that free ride to me
I'm looking for You
I'd gladly lose me to find You
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch You, I'm gonna run and never stop
I'd pay any price just to win You
Surrender my good life for bad
To find You, I'm gonna drown an unsung man
I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had
"Bargain" by The Who
I'd gladly lose me to find You
I'd gladly give up all I had
To find You, I'd suffer anything and be glad
I'd pay any price just to get You
I'd work all my life and I will
To win You, I'd stand naked, stoned and stabbed
I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had
I'd gladly lose me to find You
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch You, I'm gonna run and never stop
I'd pay any price just to win You
Surrender my good life for bad
To find You, I'm gonna drown an unsung man
I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had
I sit looking 'round
I look at my face in the mirror
I know I'm worth nothing without You
In life one and one don't make two
One and one make one
And I'm looking for that free ride to me
I'm looking for You
I'd gladly lose me to find You
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch You, I'm gonna run and never stop
I'd pay any price just to win You
Surrender my good life for bad
To find You, I'm gonna drown an unsung man
I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had
Sunday, March 29, 2009
update
Haven’t blogged much lately.
Been a lot going on.
Work is picking up, getting a little busier. Looks like one psycho at work is after my job; but, I leave that in God’s hands, He protects the blameless. I am getting pretty tired of getting blamed for things I did not do, and for getting accused of things behind my back, though…
Waiting for the judge to rubber stamp my divorce papers.
Moved my parents last week. The move went well, and they seem happy with it. A short move, just down the hall. Got to see my sister and my niece, too.
Been doing lots of gaming, Icewind Dale. I had great plans to blog all of my adventures in that mystical land at http://www.ward-of-gorion.blogspot.com , but…reality got in the way of that. Mainly, I was so busy adventuring, that I got way behind in my retelling of my adventures, to the point where it would have taken me a month of Sundays to catch up. Oops…my bad. Anyways, I just finished the game (as in, like, just five or six minutes ago), after taking about 8 tries at finishing off the end bad guy I finally managed to take him down (mind you, he killed five of my party members, and my sixth and final member was one hangnail away from death as well). An awesome game, truly awesome.
Watched a few movies lately, nothing too exciting.
Been spending my time watching Creflo Dollar, Joel Osteen, and Charles Stanley on television, good pastors/ministers who love God and have a heart for people.
I received a videogame I have never played before in the mail a week or more ago. Looking forward to playing it soon. Neverwinter Nights – The Ultimate Collection. It includes; the award-winning Neverwinter Nights, two hit expansion packs (Shadows of Undrentide and Hordes of the Underdark), game modules from the developers of Neverwinter Nights, Bioware’s Aurora Toolset for easy module creation, Neverwinter Nights:Kingmaker expansion including three complete adventures, and all patches and updates. This collection encompasses over 100 hours of solo gameplay.
So, that’ll be my next gaming experience, I believe. I also have the still-unopened Baldur’s Gate 4-in-1 boxset, which I am looking forward to going at as well. I have tentative plans to blog about both of these experiences at http://www.ward-of-gorion.blogspot.com (my “all-things-Baldur’s-Gate” fansite, devoted to the greatest game ever created, Baldur’s Gate, all of the games that followed in the BG series, plus all the computer-based video games created by Black Isle Studios and the Bioware Corporation), so check that out from time to time to see what is new in my PC-life.
I was sad to learn that Michael Sweet’s wife, Kyle Sweet, passed away from complications from cancer, on March the 6th 2009. As I bill myself as “the other Stryper brother”, it should come as no shock that I am a huge Stryper fan, both of the music, as well as the message behind it. My thoughts and prayers go out to the Sweet family, especially to Michael and his children.
Other that that, not too much to say right now. Economically, times are tough right now, so I have no extra money to spend anywhere anymore. Watching lots of hockey, of course, gearing up for the playoffs where I hope my Pittsburgh Penguins make a long run.
Oh, I shaved my hair all off yesterday, so i am bald again. i have a rather nasty scalp condition right now, so i have to wear a hat wherever i go, but hopefully now that the hair has been removed i will be able to get my scalp to clear up.
Slainte! And God bless.
D. Sweet
Been a lot going on.
Work is picking up, getting a little busier. Looks like one psycho at work is after my job; but, I leave that in God’s hands, He protects the blameless. I am getting pretty tired of getting blamed for things I did not do, and for getting accused of things behind my back, though…
Waiting for the judge to rubber stamp my divorce papers.
Moved my parents last week. The move went well, and they seem happy with it. A short move, just down the hall. Got to see my sister and my niece, too.
Been doing lots of gaming, Icewind Dale. I had great plans to blog all of my adventures in that mystical land at http://www.ward-of-gorion.blogspot.com , but…reality got in the way of that. Mainly, I was so busy adventuring, that I got way behind in my retelling of my adventures, to the point where it would have taken me a month of Sundays to catch up. Oops…my bad. Anyways, I just finished the game (as in, like, just five or six minutes ago), after taking about 8 tries at finishing off the end bad guy I finally managed to take him down (mind you, he killed five of my party members, and my sixth and final member was one hangnail away from death as well). An awesome game, truly awesome.
Watched a few movies lately, nothing too exciting.
Been spending my time watching Creflo Dollar, Joel Osteen, and Charles Stanley on television, good pastors/ministers who love God and have a heart for people.
I received a videogame I have never played before in the mail a week or more ago. Looking forward to playing it soon. Neverwinter Nights – The Ultimate Collection. It includes; the award-winning Neverwinter Nights, two hit expansion packs (Shadows of Undrentide and Hordes of the Underdark), game modules from the developers of Neverwinter Nights, Bioware’s Aurora Toolset for easy module creation, Neverwinter Nights:Kingmaker expansion including three complete adventures, and all patches and updates. This collection encompasses over 100 hours of solo gameplay.
So, that’ll be my next gaming experience, I believe. I also have the still-unopened Baldur’s Gate 4-in-1 boxset, which I am looking forward to going at as well. I have tentative plans to blog about both of these experiences at http://www.ward-of-gorion.blogspot.com (my “all-things-Baldur’s-Gate” fansite, devoted to the greatest game ever created, Baldur’s Gate, all of the games that followed in the BG series, plus all the computer-based video games created by Black Isle Studios and the Bioware Corporation), so check that out from time to time to see what is new in my PC-life.
I was sad to learn that Michael Sweet’s wife, Kyle Sweet, passed away from complications from cancer, on March the 6th 2009. As I bill myself as “the other Stryper brother”, it should come as no shock that I am a huge Stryper fan, both of the music, as well as the message behind it. My thoughts and prayers go out to the Sweet family, especially to Michael and his children.
Other that that, not too much to say right now. Economically, times are tough right now, so I have no extra money to spend anywhere anymore. Watching lots of hockey, of course, gearing up for the playoffs where I hope my Pittsburgh Penguins make a long run.
Oh, I shaved my hair all off yesterday, so i am bald again. i have a rather nasty scalp condition right now, so i have to wear a hat wherever i go, but hopefully now that the hair has been removed i will be able to get my scalp to clear up.
Slainte! And God bless.
D. Sweet
Friday, March 27, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Real-lation Ships
Trust and Respect.
Trust and respect are two things that a relationship must never lose. If you do not work to maintain your relationship by keeping these two vital cogs functional and active, you are bailing with a thimble in a sailboat with no hull and you are hoping to sail to the other side of the world. Facts are facts, you are never going to get what you want.
Oh, there are other things that are important to relationships. Romance, and communication, for instance. But, if these things slip, they can be rebuilt. Trust and respect are harder to build, and so they are more important not to lose.
A relationship has to be daily maintained. It has to be watched over and guarded, and groomed and cared for.
It is amazing the amount of people that I know, who are in hurting or unfulfilled relationships, with little to no chance of things ever being better. They get trapped, because they do not know what to do.
To be honest, you need to build a relationship on the correct things, and then maintain it daily. Doing things any other way, is relationship suicide.
Too many hurting people, too many trapped people, too many people with no hope. Too many people who have not built their relationships in the way that God sets out, and so have suffered greatly for it. I am constantly amazed at the amount of people that i know who sit and tell me that there is no romance in their relationships, no sex, no physical contact, no peace, no love, no affection, no trust, no respect, no hope. These people have lost (or never had) trust and respect in their relationships, and they have crumbled into ashes all around them. But still they hold on, becuz they have nowhere else to go, no other hope for themselves.
It' s sad.
Me, I want to do it differently this time. The right way.
God's way.
Trust and respect are two things that a relationship must never lose. If you do not work to maintain your relationship by keeping these two vital cogs functional and active, you are bailing with a thimble in a sailboat with no hull and you are hoping to sail to the other side of the world. Facts are facts, you are never going to get what you want.
Oh, there are other things that are important to relationships. Romance, and communication, for instance. But, if these things slip, they can be rebuilt. Trust and respect are harder to build, and so they are more important not to lose.
A relationship has to be daily maintained. It has to be watched over and guarded, and groomed and cared for.
It is amazing the amount of people that I know, who are in hurting or unfulfilled relationships, with little to no chance of things ever being better. They get trapped, because they do not know what to do.
To be honest, you need to build a relationship on the correct things, and then maintain it daily. Doing things any other way, is relationship suicide.
Too many hurting people, too many trapped people, too many people with no hope. Too many people who have not built their relationships in the way that God sets out, and so have suffered greatly for it. I am constantly amazed at the amount of people that i know who sit and tell me that there is no romance in their relationships, no sex, no physical contact, no peace, no love, no affection, no trust, no respect, no hope. These people have lost (or never had) trust and respect in their relationships, and they have crumbled into ashes all around them. But still they hold on, becuz they have nowhere else to go, no other hope for themselves.
It' s sad.
Me, I want to do it differently this time. The right way.
God's way.
rant?
So, this afternoon i am sitting in the drive thru lineup at Tim Horton's. It is a nice spring day, and my window is rolled down.
A woman in a vehicle two behind me calls out to this elderly couple who has just exited Tim Horton's and are getting into their car. She implores the elderly gentleman to make sure that he teaches "my generation's men" to open doors for their women, becuz the men do not do that anymore. The elderly lady says that her husband has had 92 years of practice.
This dialogue exchange both saddened me, and angered me.
Women do not seem to understand that they have all of the power in relationships. But they have exchanged everything that they want, for cheap pleasures.
If women want men to treat them with respect, then, quite honestly, and excuse my bluntness, but the women need to learn how to keep their legs closed and how to act like ladies.
You stop giving men what they want (sex on demand), and they will learn how to treat you the way that you want them to. As soon as you give them what they want without long-term commitment (marriage), then men stop working to respect you; they just lust after you.
This does not excuse men, and they way that we treat women. But when women decided to reach for sex-on-demand and the quick-fix of "make me feel good now", they lost everything they actually wanted from men.
I want a woman, one who honestly WANTS to wait until we are married. And i want to learn how to treat her the right way, over the dating and courtship period of time, so that our married life will thrive and flourish. I want to do things God's way, the right way, the good way, the only way that works; and I want a woman who wants the same thing.
I've tried it the other way. Even with my best intentions, it did not work.
Only God's way works.
That is why He is God, and I am not.
A woman in a vehicle two behind me calls out to this elderly couple who has just exited Tim Horton's and are getting into their car. She implores the elderly gentleman to make sure that he teaches "my generation's men" to open doors for their women, becuz the men do not do that anymore. The elderly lady says that her husband has had 92 years of practice.
This dialogue exchange both saddened me, and angered me.
Women do not seem to understand that they have all of the power in relationships. But they have exchanged everything that they want, for cheap pleasures.
If women want men to treat them with respect, then, quite honestly, and excuse my bluntness, but the women need to learn how to keep their legs closed and how to act like ladies.
You stop giving men what they want (sex on demand), and they will learn how to treat you the way that you want them to. As soon as you give them what they want without long-term commitment (marriage), then men stop working to respect you; they just lust after you.
This does not excuse men, and they way that we treat women. But when women decided to reach for sex-on-demand and the quick-fix of "make me feel good now", they lost everything they actually wanted from men.
I want a woman, one who honestly WANTS to wait until we are married. And i want to learn how to treat her the right way, over the dating and courtship period of time, so that our married life will thrive and flourish. I want to do things God's way, the right way, the good way, the only way that works; and I want a woman who wants the same thing.
I've tried it the other way. Even with my best intentions, it did not work.
Only God's way works.
That is why He is God, and I am not.
RIP
Former NHL player Walt Poddubny dies Saturday,
03.21.2009 / 11:21 PM / News Associated Press
THUNDER BAY, Ontario (AP) -Former NHL player Walt Poddubny died Saturday, the Thunder Bay Chronicle-Journal reported. He was 49.
The cause of death wasn't known. The newspaper said a person close to the family said Poddubny collapsed at his sister's house, where he was living.
Drafted 90th overall by Edmonton in 1980, Poddubny played 11 NHL seasons for the Oilers, Toronto, the New York Rangers, Quebec and New Jersey. He had 184 goals and 238 assists in 468 games and topped the 30-goal mark three times.
After finishing his playing career in the American Hockey League with the Worcester IceCats, Poddubny coached the Anchorage Aces in the West Coast Hockey League.
He returned home in 2003 to spend time with his children and was involved in coaching and hockey celebrity appearances.
Rest in peace, Walt. I remember your playing days with fondness. I hope you met Jesus before you passed, and that you are with Him now.
03.21.2009 / 11:21 PM / News Associated Press
THUNDER BAY, Ontario (AP) -Former NHL player Walt Poddubny died Saturday, the Thunder Bay Chronicle-Journal reported. He was 49.
The cause of death wasn't known. The newspaper said a person close to the family said Poddubny collapsed at his sister's house, where he was living.
Drafted 90th overall by Edmonton in 1980, Poddubny played 11 NHL seasons for the Oilers, Toronto, the New York Rangers, Quebec and New Jersey. He had 184 goals and 238 assists in 468 games and topped the 30-goal mark three times.
After finishing his playing career in the American Hockey League with the Worcester IceCats, Poddubny coached the Anchorage Aces in the West Coast Hockey League.
He returned home in 2003 to spend time with his children and was involved in coaching and hockey celebrity appearances.
Rest in peace, Walt. I remember your playing days with fondness. I hope you met Jesus before you passed, and that you are with Him now.
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