Thoughts of beauty, in passing

Sometimes, love just isn’t enough to keep people together. There needs to be more; like-mindedness (at least on some things), respect, belief, loyalty, and a future.

It is sad, really. Sad, because love is so inflaming, so igniting, so passionate to the soul; love is a nuclear furnace, it burns white hot through the very soul of a person…yet, there has to be more. Love, in and of itself, is not enough.

Everybody needs somebody to stand up for them, to believe in them. Too many people go through life, not having that person. They settle. That’s sad. It is very, very sad when the person you are closest to, the person you love, the person you let in to your life in intimate ways, is not that person who respects you and believes in you and treats you like gold and believes in the best for you and puts you first in everything. For too many people, this is their reality, and I weep for them. But, saddest of all, is when there is no one person who believes in you.

For myself, most of those who do believe in me, end up being people who have taken the time to get to know me, to examine me. And most of them, in one way or another, recognize me for who I am and express to me how much I mean to them, only after they have walked away from me, never to return in true closeness. I believe it is possible that I scare people off, that my openness is actually a hindrance to real relationships, because to many people have settled in life and just do not know what to do with people who are open and honest and caring and compassionate and real.

I have a select few people in my life who believe in me, and I am thankful for that (and for them). But I am not so sure that I have ever had that belief, that offered acceptance of who I am, coming from a person who has also given me their heart and truly let me in to their world as well. That makes me sad. Because that is what I want. Okay, Lord?

I just want to love, and be loved. I want to accept, and be accepted. I know that nothing this side of heaven will ever fully satisfy those needs within me…but I also know that the needs that I feel, they were also put there by God, and so was the need for human companionship and love.

I just want to meet a special person, all of my own. And I want to love on her like there is no tomorrow. I want to make her the very center of my life (God excluded, obviously), and do my best to bring her blessings and happiness and every good opportunity that she deserves as a special child of God.

That’s all that I want; I just want it all. I want the fairy tale, and the reality. And I do not just want it; I expect it.

Because it is real. It is out there. I feel it in my heart, and in my soul. One day, maybe soon, that will happen for me, a beautiful gift from my Saviour to me.