Facial Wreck-ognition and other thoughts

So, I am growing in my beard. For me, this is a statement. It has been a long time since I had a beard. I think I am doing it, because I can. Because I am single, and learning to be okay with being single (after all, it was my choice to be this way). My beard is a statement, because to me it is a sign that as a single person, I can do what feels good and right to me. I can grow something on my face that may not be attractive to a lot of women, and not worry about it, because I am not looking for (or wanting, right now, or for a good long while) a love relationship in my life. And I am okay with that.

I have noticed something about my beard. I used to have a healthy amount of red hairs in my beard. Most of them are now gone. They have been replaced by an extraordinary amount of white hairs. Huh. Guess I am getting older, then, aren’t I?



It is very easy to hear from God what we WANT to hear from Him. The voice of God within us is a still small voice. To those of us who belong to Him, God’s voice is quite often (if not always) a voice that is on our side. He is for us. He supports us, and loves us. He loves us, because we are His beloved creation, and adopted sons (and daughters) through Jesus Christ. So, most often we hear Him supporting us, encouraging us. He does not tear us down. That being so, it is often too easy to mistake that small voice of pleasure (He is pleased with us), and to think that He supports us in every decision we make, even when our decisions go against His Word.

When we make a decision, or decisions, that strictly go against what God’s Word says, we may hear God saying He loves us, but too often we take that good feeling of love and acceptance from Him and think that we hear God saying that He is pleased with our decisions in life, or with the things we are doing. But that is not necessarily so. Not when we go against His Word. If we are lying or cheating to get ahead, we should not think God is for us in these matters. God must remain true to His Word. He can be displeased with our actions, but still love us for who we are (and because of Who He is). If we choose to “sleep” with somebody who is not our husband/wife, we should not think that God supports that or honours that. If we covet what does not belong to us, we should not think that God is in favour of that bad decision in our life. Sin is sin, no matter how “small” or large it may seem to us, and God is always displeased with our sin. We cannot expect God to honour wilful sin in our lives. The ends do not justify the means, not when the means involves going against God’s laws; all we do is put ourselves in danger, we put ourselves in places that God never meant for us to be and we hurt ourselves, whether we want to admit it or not.

For me, I coveted somebody who did not belong to me. I coveted somebody in a relationship with another person. I wanted God to break up a family unit. I honestly thought God was telling me that He was on my side in this matter. I honestly thought I clearly heard Him say this. But that is impossible. A God Who could go against His own holy laws, is not the God that I know, love, and serve. It was too easy for me to believe that God was honouring my poor decisions in life, because that is what I desperately wanted to hear from Him. But it was a wrong belief. God cannot say something that goes against His Word, no matter what we believe we hear; it is impossible.


I had a nice talk with a few people from work this afternoon. It is nice that people there care about me. Although the advice they give me does not come from a Godly standpoint, and is often wrong for me, still I appreciate that they like me enough to care enough about me to want to advise me in my life. People at my work know me, at least somewhat, and they support me and believe in me. They know I am a good person, and they are on my side in life. That is a nice feeling.